Weeks 34-35- the bump.

34 weeks

35 weeks

At my doctor appointment last week we had an ultrasound to check on the baby and found out that our baby girl isn't growing quite as much as she needs to be. I have been really concerned and anxious since we found this out last Tuesday! From here on out I will be having ultrasounds and NST's (non stress tests) twice a week until the baby arrives. Hopefully that still won't be for close to another 5 more weeks! But, the doctor let us know that if our baby girl gets any smaller, or just doesn't seem to be doing well inside of me, then she will need to come out a bit early. This has made me anxious because, well, first and foremost I just am worried about our baby and just want her to be born happy and healthy! But, also I know that if she does need to come early that my chances of being able to try for a VBAC go down a bit and the chances of having another baby in the NICU also go up a bit... I won't go into all the details of how I'm feeling about how things may or may not turn out... mostly because at this point my goal is to focus on having faith in my Heavenly Father- I know He is watching over me and the baby and I know everything will be okay. If there is anything I should have learned from having Keaton/pregnancy in general is that things just aren't going to go the way I HAVE PLANNED. I still have problems with keeping my anxiety/worries in check, (I'm just WAY too good at being a worrier...!) but I'm doing lots better this week than last week and I know that is because I'm trying harder to put all my trust in the Lord.

So, for now, we take things day by day. The doctor didn't say I'm on bed rest, but he said to take it real easy and stay off my feet. So, Keaton and I are just hanging out at home (which we do most of the time anyway, although it's amazing how much harder that is to WANT to do when you have been told you HAVE to...!) One week from tomorrow my doctor will measure the baby again and then decide from there what is best to do. But, like I said before, for now we just take things day by day.